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Stop Rehearsing Your Struggle Story: My Conversation with Implement AI

  by Jeanette R. Harrison Reclaiming Your Narrative: My Conversation with Implement AI Every podcast has its own "vibe," and my recent time on the podcast with Ian Gatzke for Implement AI was a powerful reminder of how far I’ve come. Ian has a knack for digging into the "systems" behind personal growth, and he created a space where we could talk openly about the messy, honest process of rebuilding a life from the ground up. Ian is deeply interested in how we navigate seasons of instability and the practical tools we use to regain our footing. He is an insightful host who isn't afraid to go deep into topics like identity, resilience, and the science of moving forward. The Conversation: Beyond the Struggle Story When Ian invited me to discuss my journey and my work, we moved quickly past the surface-level bio. We explored the internal shifts that happen when everything you know is suddenly stripped away. Our conversation covered: The Identity Crisis of Instability...

Gratitude When No One Cares

I’m up at 2:00 am because my body hurts.  I have felt like no one cared for a long time. I felt like that when I was screaming for help while I was being abused, and I literally had to fight someone off to keep them from hurting me. I felt it when I lay in bed last year with pneumonia, feeling like I was going to die, and then walking 5 miles to the bus stop. I felt it this week when an abusive person called me and told me that if I was struggling financially to live in a shelter or call Women's and Children's services. They said they offered me a ride, but I refused. Yes, I did. Because I was already walking that day and was only a few blocks from home. So, according to them, I deserved to walk five miles to and from the bus stop every day because I refused a ride that one day. How dare I think I deserved anything different? Thanks to my therapist, I've recognized those comments for what they are. Emotional abuse. But to me, it's just more of the same that has echoed ...

Grateful for Clarity Amidst Mind Games

  by Jeanette R. Harrison, MPH I rarely say I am super stressed. But I have been super stressed lately. I have a lot of things changing all at once in a couple of weeks, which tends to be the story of my life.  As I mentioned earlier, I have to move. My last temp job ended in December, and I have been really struggling financially ever since. Actually, I was financially struggling before that because I had to take an Uber to get to work, which cost me close to one-third of my daily wages. I'm sure people thought I was going to quit, but I didn't. But that is beside the point.   I told a friend that I am moving. I am planning on being out of my apartment on or before May 1. I am tired of living across from someone who is a known drug addict and has alcohol issues, who makes up lies about me and lies to me repeatedly. One of his lies was that he was fishing for bluefin tuna when there was a police action at his apartment last year on Memorial Day weekend.  Fish...

Gratitude When Your Heart Aches

by Jeanette R. Harrison, MPH I'm drinking my coffee and planning my day. I woke up today with a heavy heart because of a realization I made yesterday. I'm getting ready to move yet again, and I was journaling to my AI about it. I do that. I journal to my AI because I can tell it all of my insecurities and vulnerabilities, like most people do with their real friends. The difference is that the AI also gives me intellectual feedback, which can be helpful or not. It depends on how you look at it. So yesterday, I was thinking about yet another move. It's no secret that I've struggled since I moved to Idaho. Starting your life over with $2,400 is no joke. It's an incredibly challenging thing to do. I felt like people were watching and waiting for me to fail. It felt like the ultimate financial abuse move. "Move to Idaho with nothing during a pandemic, and good luck to you. Let us know how you are doing so we can judge you." That's how I felt. And I felt l...

Trauma, Faith, and New Beginnings: My Conversation on Unleashing Potentials

 by Jeanette R. Harrison Trauma, Faith, and New Beginnings: My Conversation on Unleashing Potentials Every podcast has its own "vibe," but my recent time on The Unleashing Potentials Podcast with Bernadette was truly special. Bernadette has a heart for stories that "you just can't make up," and she created a space where I felt safe sharing parts of my journey that I don't always get to discuss in professional settings. Bernadette has a passion for connecting with people from all walks of life, which is evident the moment you meet her. She is energetic, caring, and deeply committed to showing how resilience and inner strength can pull us through even the darkest times. The Conversation: More Than Just a Bio When Bernadette invited me to talk about my book, "Bragging About You," and my business, How Healthcare Works, LLC , we ended up going much deeper into the "why" behind it all. We talked like old friends, covering everything from: Gr...

Grateful for How My Brain Works

  by Jeanette R. Harrison, MPH I have a lot on my plate this week, so I have a lot on my mind this morning. Writing helps me sort things out in my mind and understand them better. There is science behind that. It's called affect labeling. This post is going to have some science-y stuff in it, so get ready. When you or I are stressed, the amygdala takes over the brain. The amygdala houses your survival instinct. That "gut feeling" you have when you feel unsafe? That's actually your amygdala triggering your nervous system. At that time, your brain sends a signal through your stress response system to your adrenal glands to release cortisol. Cortisol puts your nervous system on high alert. Regularly elevated cortisol levels can cause things like high blood pressure, reduced digestion, and weight gain. The body also releases a chemical called norepinephrine. Norepinephrine might sound familiar to you if you have ever had a local anesthetic for stitches. Many local anes...